I missed you tomorrow

Here I am sitting in this fancy French restaurant, going through the menu again and again and having a hard time what to order. I look up to ask what do you want to eat, but realize I am alone. 

I go back in time when I would just sit and gaze out of the window and you would know what I wanted to eat.

'Hi Mam, what would you like to order'. The voice of the waiter brings me back to today and all I can order is a coffee. I have lost my appetite.I miss you!

Its 9 pm and i have nothing to do. I google to decide which movie I want to watch. Its a Kiera Knightley movie today-'The last night'. 'Did you see her shoes, aren't they gorgeous!' The silence in the movie makes me realize I am watching the movie alone. 'Yes they are gorgeous' I say to myself. I miss you!

I have been working too much. I am stressed. I need to go shopping to help me relax and feel good. I venture into the adjacent shopping mall and end up in the shoes store. Black or blue or grey or tan?Which 1 should I pick. I look around to ask for someone's opinion, but there is no one to answer me. It was so much easy when you would just say this is better and I would instantly pick that up.I can't decide and just leave the store. I miss you!

I am out for a walk, and I cross by this tower which is always decked up in lights. I call it my pretty building.

I feel good about my looks today. I want a picture with the pretty building as the backdrop.I want a full shot of the building and me. But...who do I ask to capture the moment. I miss you!

Its a beautiful evening and I am just returning back from work. I cross this place called The Wine Story. I see inside through the glass doors and see couples and friends everywhere. I don't want to go alone. I keep walking towards my hotel. I miss you!

Its been a long and tiring day at office. And I want to talk about it, but you are still at office, busy with your work and by the time you get back, I would probably be asleep. I miss you!

I missed you yesterday and I miss you today and I know I will miss you tomorrow,wherever I am, whatever I am doing, I will always miss you! So I can always say I missed you tomorrow.

Her end of the promise

Feb,2013

"Come here", "I miss you" he said.
"I miss you too" she said."I will be there soon,before you realize it.I love you."
"Okay,I gotta run to office,I am getting late.Catch you later." he said

She rolled over in the bed, and yearned to be by his side,hold his hands. Her days now were just about waiting to be with him.She had never known she will find such love. She never knew before that such love existed. She was happy,that's all that mattered to her.


April,2013

"What is wrong?Tell me what's bothering you?"
"Nothing.I just need some rest.It was a long day,I am tired" he said
She didn't like his reply. She kept thinking what she could have done/said wrong to make him sulk.

May,2013

"I can't do this anymore. If you don't want me in your life,tell me.I know I wouldn't get any answer which will justify why you are doing all this." That's all she could text him and she never got any reply. It was over. She could feel that.

Jan,2014

"Are you here?" he pinged
Memories,which she thought never had existed came back to her and she could feel herself getting choked.
"Yes" she replied.
"How long are you going to be here"
What do you care,she thought.

It's 10 in the night.She just got back to her room. Her thoughts went back to him.
All she could think was that she had kept her end of the promise, but the promise no longer seemed valid.
"I am here but what do I do now that I am here. The purpose of wanting to be here is gone." was all she could think through the night.

Why??

2nd April,2010- I bought my first smart phone, well at that time Nokia 5233 was definitely a smart phone! That was what I bought with my first salary. Needless to say, I was ecstatic. By April,2011 I had dropped my phone so many times that it looked like it would die any moment. Somewhere around the same time I laid my eyes on Samsung Galaxy S2. Checking out the price, my mind said, "Well, your monthly pay is less than the price of the phone!". I changed cities, got a hike though minimal and finally by the time I resigned from my first job, I bought myself  a Samsung phone. Nope not S2 but S3. I had contemplated between many brands but my love for Samsung stood out. My happiness knew no bounds when I got this phone. I was so badly addicted to it like I had never been to anything else. I was constantly clicking pictures anywhere I went. Owing to this, I had a new found interest in photography. And thus was born the urge to own a DSLR. But where was the money, given the fact that I am a shopaholic and can never manage to save anything by the end of the month. Well, finally my prayers were answered and after a lot of research and consultation, I bought the Nikon D3200. To say the truth I haven't got much time to play around with it afterwards. 

So I sit here now and think what happens after we achieve what we wanted. Why doesn't the feeling of euphoria stay with us forever. It feels like the world before you have it and once it is yours, nothing! So is it just the thought of possessing something that drives us to do what we do? Or is it something else?  

I am always happy after achieving something, but after that I want something else. That's the eternal cycle what life is all about I think. We live our life in these small goals and achievements and are motivated to better ourselves daily. The day I wake up and feel I have got everything I wanted, what will I do through the day? Today I want to see all the famous movies, read all books by the different great authors, travel to a new place every year, learn to cook varied cuisine dishes and so on and so forth and I hope I add new things to this list everyday.